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Thursday, May 10, 2012
Sunday, May 6, 2012
The Quiet Before the Storm
So many changes, so little time!
A year ago: I was probably enjoying a stress-free Sunday in my bed, hungover from a crazy Saturday with my girl friends, reading texts or checking calls and making sure I did not drunk dial anyone. The next day, I'd be up early for my OJT at a placement firm in Makati. Just a year ago, I was happy and contented that my life would be composed of thousands of resumes, rejection interviews, cups of coffee/tea, office gossip and blistered feet.
Seven months ago: Somewhere along the road I changed my mind. I realized that I cannot live in that confine nor can I see myself being a corporate high-maintenance biatch (not that my bosses were, actually they were very kind but along the way you'll realize a lot of them are). I saw my office-mates and bosses who were 5-7 years in their profession and their life to me seemed so.. lacking. I felt like I needed more. A challenge! Something that'll keep that passion in me burning. Or maybe it was the pressure of NMAT or the nostalgic feelings of childhood dreams and pinky promises I gave my parents. Maybe. But life decisions like this don't just happen in a whim. It was there deep in my heart.
Four months ago: I got my results for NMAT and got accepted by University of the East Ramon Magsaysay Memorial Medical Center (what a long name). But most of all, I got the approval of my uncles and aunts who are the most generous people ever. I cannot thank them enough, really. Over a month ago: I was still stressed with my finals, thesis and other school requirements. I just couldn't wait for it to be over. But at the same time, I can not believe it ended so soon. It's true that UP has molded me into the person I have become. This is where I learned to cut classes for drinking's sake, get high and really care for things that matter. I can name so many things but then again this is a public blog so I'll keep it at that. Hehe! It was the ultimate college experience. Do I regret anything? Absolutely not. Maybe a couple of things but hey, I survived.
16 days ago: After completing my clearance, renting my toga, getting my sablay, buying my shoes and dresses, having my hair and make-up done... etc... I FINALLY GRADUATED! Life is good. I never thought the feeling of actually graduating can feel that good. Back in grade school and high school, it was more of a drama-fest where all you guys do are cry and wish that your BFFs will always be your BFFS (or not). But a university graduation feels like you finally got recognized for who you are, who you have become and what you have accomplished. Sarap ng feeling! ;-)
Today: Here I am on another lazy Sunday afternoon, typing away my thoughts. Right now I am in an in-between and I love it. This is the quiet before the storm that is medical school. On June 11, everything will be new and frightful. Right now, I am in a safe place where all I have to think of is taking a shower, filling my stomach and how many torrents I have successfully downloaded. If life were always like this, it'll be easy and breezy. But life is never easy and breezy, is it?
Sometimes I feel like I need a complete overhaul or else I won't succeed. But previous experiences taught me to work with what you have now and improve on what you lack. I guess that'll be my approach for med school. Of course, I have more lacking that what I really got going but I know I have one thing that'll give me an edge for sure: my passion to succeed. I may tumble down or fall but I never failed to succeed. :-)
Seven months ago: Somewhere along the road I changed my mind. I realized that I cannot live in that confine nor can I see myself being a corporate high-maintenance biatch (not that my bosses were, actually they were very kind but along the way you'll realize a lot of them are). I saw my office-mates and bosses who were 5-7 years in their profession and their life to me seemed so.. lacking. I felt like I needed more. A challenge! Something that'll keep that passion in me burning. Or maybe it was the pressure of NMAT or the nostalgic feelings of childhood dreams and pinky promises I gave my parents. Maybe. But life decisions like this don't just happen in a whim. It was there deep in my heart.
Four months ago: I got my results for NMAT and got accepted by University of the East Ramon Magsaysay Memorial Medical Center (what a long name). But most of all, I got the approval of my uncles and aunts who are the most generous people ever. I cannot thank them enough, really. Over a month ago: I was still stressed with my finals, thesis and other school requirements. I just couldn't wait for it to be over. But at the same time, I can not believe it ended so soon. It's true that UP has molded me into the person I have become. This is where I learned to cut classes for drinking's sake, get high and really care for things that matter. I can name so many things but then again this is a public blog so I'll keep it at that. Hehe! It was the ultimate college experience. Do I regret anything? Absolutely not. Maybe a couple of things but hey, I survived.
Today: Here I am on another lazy Sunday afternoon, typing away my thoughts. Right now I am in an in-between and I love it. This is the quiet before the storm that is medical school. On June 11, everything will be new and frightful. Right now, I am in a safe place where all I have to think of is taking a shower, filling my stomach and how many torrents I have successfully downloaded. If life were always like this, it'll be easy and breezy. But life is never easy and breezy, is it?
Sometimes I feel like I need a complete overhaul or else I won't succeed. But previous experiences taught me to work with what you have now and improve on what you lack. I guess that'll be my approach for med school. Of course, I have more lacking that what I really got going but I know I have one thing that'll give me an edge for sure: my passion to succeed. I may tumble down or fall but I never failed to succeed. :-)
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